the joy of being

my soulmate,
why is it that one has so much to say and still just cannot say it ? the
feeling that flows within me, thru me, all over me is something so pure, so
gentle, so wonderful, so powerful. Gives me a power yet unknown to me, at
times making me just smile that mystic smile, at times making me articulate
and at times making me choke. I always thought love would be a feeling,
sweet and painful, ardent in passion, warm and encompassing, defying reason,
desireous and gripping. It is all of that and much much more. It is a force
that makes me fly with my feet on the ground, makes me sail without getting
wet; makes me do all that i have to with a sense of doing so that after it
is done, i have something very delightful to look forward to.
I always wanted myself to be free of possessions, most important of all
to love someone just for the purity and divinity of love. It was my soul
that wanted to rejoice in the eternal joy of giving to the one for whom it
is to be, the one whe deserves it as no one else, who wants it so that he
may cherish it, nurture it and complete it. Tennyson once quoted "the shell
must break before the bird can fly". You happened to me and the shell broke,
a part of me that i never knew i had was brought to life. I felt a complete
harmony of my mind, my heart, my body and my soul. Each one loves you, the
entire you in its own special way and yet all of them attune to the symphony
of love. I never feel any part of me flitting or vagrant. It is apparent
that we did not choose our love, love chose us. It came to us, not to
sojourn but to forever abode. Love delighted for it was on the terra firma
of friendship. It can feel the friendship that has develeped with a sense of
being, a sense of being oneself and of being one. The seed of friendship has
taken deep roots and the plant is growing. Each day, each moment makes me
conscious of the gift that we possess and its endeavor of a lifetime never
to explain but to express its beauty. I know i am yet an imperfect human and
am prone to mistakes, pitfalls and traps. I have always tried to avoid each
of these ever since i consciously became aware of them and now that i have
an added force in me viz. the force of our love, i fain take each step in
the future with a renewed vigor. The day i felt the power of love, i
realized it is simply not possible to have no expectations. We cannot
measure our strength by what we do not do. The true battle is in
distinguishing between our expectations and not letting them command us. We
expect but do not possess. Love is like the blood in the body. It flows from
the heart all over. It truely belongs to the heart but it is for the heart
to keep pumping it. Any attempt to retain it is death incarnate. I cannot
awe enough at this divine miracle of nature and am blessed to have it
flowing within me. Dear, you know me as i know myself. With myself,
i have happily vibrated always. With you, i want to resonate. Before that
can happen, you have your own struggle to surpass, your own vibrations to
establish, your own identity to carve and i know you will make it for it is
your very own. I am there for you, with you for i am your very own honey and
though i miss u, each and every aspect of you, i always feel you all around
me. I just want you to be you, the very you for being with you is like being
with myself for it simply IS the joy of being.